I didn’t go to work today, yay. My friend asked me if I was “super happy” about that, of course I said no. Told him I was rather just, glad. I’ll be “super happy” when I know I don’t have to return to that place if I quit or get fired. But then again money won’t be coming in, but is that like a literal concern right now? No.
Woke up, watched some Hulu , cuz Netflix be lagging, Reba, to be more specific is what I watched before knocking out again. I watched some YouTube, probably more than what a normal sane person would watch, but hey, who cares.
That’s a statement not a question. I’m actually bingeing this one youtuber, I love her energy she’s awesome and she is the inner me to be honest. Her name is Emma Chainberlien. I hope that’s how you spell it, if not sorry I was to lazy to check.
For some reason I was starving and made my self an overwhelming breakfast, yes overwhelming. It was a regular sandwich with a cooked egg smacked right it the middle. I chopped up some sausages and threw them on top of the raw egg before I flipped it over, it was actually very artsy. Should have I taken a picture? Maybe, but I was too hungry that I ate it too fast. Drank that down with a super strong iced coffee I made for myself. I say strong because who measures coffee anymore? Just poured that sucker in the hot water and hoped it came out good.
Played some PS4 for a little and now I’m here. Why didn’t I go to work? Well tomorrow I have a religious thing all day. Am I excited about it? A little. Usually don’t do very well in big groups and this is sort of like a convention type thing. Still it helps to escape some of my thoughts. I was actually supposed to help with some things but I told them no, my anxiety would eventually persuade me not to even show up and that’s rude so I told them straight up.
I’ll see my Ex there. Ew, sounds weird saying ex. But it is what it is really. Don’t know how I’ll feel seeing her after everything. Maybe nothing? Maybe I’ll feel a little upset? Who knows but I’ll let you know.
I was sort of ticked off yesterday night, my friend and I were going to do something this morning and he texted me last night saying that he was actually going to work the morning shift because he has to go get his passport in the evening. I didn’t even remind him that we had plans but ok.
Another very distant friend who I actually haven’t talked to in months messaged me saying that there was a get together at a friends house and I was invited today. I genuinely thought of going, but I haven’t seen these people in more than 6+ months and it’s just awkward. I feel like they resent me for walking out of their life’s like I did. But then again it was really nice that they still think of me time to time. Maybe I will see them, just not today though.
Today I have to help my little brother open a bank account, I know big deal. He’s 19 and still no bank account or drivers license, he’s lazy. Then I might go to the movies with him. That’s my Friday, for me all this is exhausting, how do people do this on a daily basis? I can barley breathe sometimes, but that’s just me.