July 2017 – December 2017

The last six months of this year were really crazy.

In July we were all recovering firm my moms surgery. I remember how hard it was but how strong it made all of us. We Never expected any of that to happen. It was one of the hardest months in my life. I was going through so much and then to top it all off life had to take from me my best friend. I had him for ten years and they were great but I wasn’t ready to let him go. Then pretty soon my bills started piling up so I had to look for a second job.

Life was still stressful in August but I was getting through. I was going through the regular motions of the everyday life pretending I was fine too everyone else. In the search of a new job I starting working at a call center which I got the job thanks to an old coworker . Where I am currently still working now. I started making amends with friends that had lost touch with me.

Stephen we was a really tricky month. It had many ups and downs. But the one that was awesome was when I went to sequoia. I had a blast there and I love thee trees and out doors I wish we could have stayed longer. I started working at the call center officially and it really took a lot of me to continue. And I was doing really good. This was also the month I started dating which I really didn’t do seriously.

September was a really hoe of a month. My dating life turned into a hook up life. I was so emotional all the time that I never knew if I was going to react to something happy or sad. Plus my sexuality was bugging me so much.

Last month I barley even came on word press. Working almost 80 hours a week was draining me and I never had time for anything. But still I had many adventures in that month that really made me feel good.

December was also a roller caster of a month. And I don’t say that lightly. I was a hoe and I was also a saint. I had maybe the best day of the year. Which I will never forget . And I had a fucked up christmas .

What does 2018 hold for me? I don’t know but 2017 was a very hard and stressful year. I just hope that 2018 has mercy on my soul because I don’t know what I will be able to take after everything that has already happened, I’m like a wounded animal and I need a little time to recuperate.