Today was the last zoom “meeting” we had with our teacher. It was, the ceremony we will never have, because of COVID.
In all honesty it was rather sad and depressing but what can you do about it, this stupid virus go the best of the world this year and it took lives, events, and peoples plans with it.
I am happy that I finished it though. I don’t know if I am happy that I am done with it or that I actually accomplished it, maybe both. Either way its done.
What’s next for me? Well, I still have one more test to pass to get a certain certification but other than that I can start looking for clerical jobs around my area. I still work part time for my internship that hired me, which I am great full for. But, to have a job closer and it be full time would be better.
What will the rest of 2020 bring us? I feel like we’ve seen enough.
I don’t know if I can say that I have been feeling any better than I did on the first day. It has only been two days since I came out, even though it feels like both years ago and just yesterday at the same time.
I told a couple of my close friends what was going on and they have been really supportive. I do have very loving friends and they care about me a lot and it makes me feel really special and loved.
I still have some things that I left back at my moms house. I don’t know when or if I will ever go pick them up. I have my dogs there, I would love to bring them here with me but as the situation looks right now I think they’re better off over there.
I still need to get used to living somewhere else. It feels odd. Nothing is mine and I feel as if I’m intruding on someones personal space. I don’t like to be a burden either. But I guess its something that with time I will have to get used to. I’m with my boyfriend so it shouldn’t feel as though I am with a stranger anyways. Although, everything right now seems super strange.
Yesterday I almost didn’t do any schoolwork. I was to tired. So today I have to go at it hard. There are only about 3 weeks left until I get my certificate of completion. My job said they wouldn’t make me full time but I’m good with the part time for now.
One step at a time. I’m not any better than I was before, but I am OK.